i seem to be nearing

the end of my troubles. hopefully. this morning i signed the lease for my new apartment. my lovely friend sarah and i are going to make it adorable. i can't believe it's actually mine!

anyhow, it has really seemed as though this has been a period of absolute change for me, so i figure why not throw in some good-for-me changes with them.

number 1. no cable (or at least, not in the living room). not even a tv in my room. because i'm addicted, pure and simple. if it's in the room, i'll watch it, and i have wasted enough of my life with it already. i'm only going to watch movies and only sparingly. i can spend my time with other things which tend to be far more fulfilling.

number 2. i need some more routine in my life. as things are now i go to bed around 3 am usually and wake up anywhere from 8-12. i don't usually eat breakfast, i have to give myself extra time to get everywhere because i don't have a car, and things like laundry get pushed to the last minute. i'm amazed the plants that i have are still alive, honestly, and i'm looking forward to getting plants for our new apartment. i feel like i need some green around me, some life. for that, i'll need to water them regularly and make sure they're not sick. it's especially important for me to care for my recently acquired orchid. ideally i'd like to have aloe in the bathroom, a fern in the living room, the orchid and my other plant in my bedroom and herbs in a flower box on the porch.

so many plants will require that i develop routines. i think perhaps it will help me take a little better care of me if i'm caring for all these plants.

number 3. i want to be peaceful more. i'd like to spend more time being quiet and alone with a good book or music. my art definitely has suffered from the lack of attention... i feel like all i've been doing recently is getting by. i'm eating junk, watching junk, weighed down by my (soon to be less) impressive amount of junk.

these are things i'd like. i want to be able to cook and do so regularly. i want to eat good, solid meals when i am supposed to. i want to ride my bike around. i want to make things. i want to take my vitamins. i want to wake up to sunlight.

here's hoping that i can bring some of those things to life.